His Thoughts Toward Me

How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! (NASB) ~Psalm 139:17

"God what are your thoughts toward me?"

The question stemmed from so many things. I want to be loved. I want approval. I want to feel happy. And I look for those things in every place. I try to numb myself with entertainment, I try to keep busy so I don't have time to think about what's hurting me, I try to be prettier and skinnier and all of that. 

And all this time, I've been ignoring the very thing that will set me free.

His love.

Take a minute. Close your eyes, and imagine what God is thinking towards you. Try to recall the Bible verses that you used to memorize before you got too busy. I'll tell you my version at this very moment.

"Sara, I'm never going to leave you or forsake you. My plans for you are good. I have loved you with an everlasting love! When I have tried you, you shall come out as gold. Seek me with your whole heart." 

Every single statement there came directly from his word. That is why we must constantly be soaking up his word, we must devour it and hold onto it and obsess over it. It will replace the old thoughts -- the thoughts that nag at you. You know what I'm talking about. The thoughts of someone not caring anymore, the thoughts of jealousy, the thoughts of "wait, I need to do this and that and this and that and let me not forget to feed the chipmunks and watch this movie because this actress is in it and God-forbid I should miss that..." JUST STOP.

The King; let me say that again; THE KING, yeah the KING is thinking about you. He thinks about you more than you think about that person you really love, he thinks about you more than you think about how you wish you had a better life. We have all we need in him, friends. Why, oh why, do we search for it in other places? 

His love will drown everything else out. It will quiet your fears and depression and will give you a reason to live. I'll leave you with this little memory. 

It was about a month ago, and I was anticipating a really hard year. The short version of it all is that I had to pretty much sacrifice some dreams that were years and years in the making. And it hurt. Really bad. I'm tearing up thinking about it right now. 

"God, I can't do this alone. The only way I can get through this is if you don't leave me."

And I remembered that verse.

"Sara, I will never leave you or forsake you."

"Well then, so be it."

Imagine what he's saying to you. Find his promises and his commands that he's impressed in your heart. It will always change. Psalm 139 goes on to say, "If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with You." 

Oh friends! He is here with us! He loves us SOOOOO MUCH! How can I make you believe that? I wish I could hold all of you close to me and whisper in your ear how much he loves you. But I don't need to. God is already doing that. Will you listen? Will you get alone with him and seek him with all your heart? He will satisfy your soul. He will. 

I love you all and am praying that you would find all you need in Jesus' loving arms. 

A life he loves,

Sara