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What’s on my heart?

A million things, I acknowledge. 

The days are busy, involved; I suppose sometimes I assume my heart has no time to 

breathe. 

Reflect. 

Remember. 

Learn. 

Grow.

I get so consumed with the maintenance and the moments I forget 

the purpose. 

The beauty.

Inhale, exhale.

What’s on my heart?

Some of the lessons I learned days and days ago are once again inching their way into my heart. 

Jesus is beckoning me closer, calling me to deeper fellowship and love. 

Oh Jesus, how do I wander so far away from you? I’m pursuing good things, yet in the midst of them I lose our closeness. Forgive me, Jesus.

 I’m learning humility…again…

oh Lord, why is this lesson so hard?        

Even this morning he reminded me He’s my refuge. And I remember months and months ago when I learned to hide there, in his presence, away from the chaos surrounding me. 

When did I forget, Jesus? When did I forget I can run to you and hide?

He’s refining my heart, bringing me to repentance. 

Create in me a clean heart, O God.

He’s building new things within me: Run to ME, Sara, first. This burden you’re carrying is too heavy for you. The pressure is too much. Let me handle it. Let me handle it.

I’m learning to see the beauty around me. Yesterday I complained to myself the whole day. Felt anger. Felt my joy seep out of me, replaced with frustration. Anger. Fear.  

Oh Lord, today I choose joy. Today I choose to be aware of your blessings.

So here, in the crowded moments and chaos of this season, I raise my head. I remember how much He’s done. I choose to walk in his joy, his humility, his gifts, his wisdom.

These are beautiful days: learning to sing and dance before Jesus fulfills his promises. Before he whispers what the next step is. This is where living happens, where growth is multiplied, where beauty is born. 

I trust in you, O Lord; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hand…”

What’s on your heart?